"everything is fine thank you"

My daily work routine is one that doesn’t help make a lot of friends when I share it over conversations. The best way to sum it up is that if I were my own boss, I’ll sack myself. Sometimes I wonder if this habitual behaviour to procrastinate and slack will render me a vegetable by the time I finish my doctoral studies. Actually, that is a rhetorical question; I just need to look at the academics in my department to realise that the truth is as naked as salad without dressing.

I am never convinced that I work hard, because I can remember vividly the number of hours I fall asleep at my desk rather than the minutes I diligently invest to get work done. Yet, the comments and perceptions of my colleagues and peers suggest different. There is this strange impression that I am an industrious worker-bee that will finish my course before you could say PhD. In situations like these, I will always beg to differ. Being the Chinese that I am, I will attempt to brush aside compliments to confess that I really spend as much time doing nothing as much as I spend time being tucked in bed. That is cue for weird looks of resentment which look upon me as being a hypocritical pig rather than a humble pie. Therefore, I would suppose swinging conversations to the other end of the spectrum would help make more friends; “ah yes, the study is going well, in fact I think I will finish in two and a half years” – in which case, I will be looked upon to be arrogant and conceited like a prancing peacock with its feathery bottom suck to its head. It has been an interesting learning experience in terms of developing social skills with fellow academics. At the end of the day, I have learned to basically keep my mouth shut when someone asks about my research and work…………..

…………..“everything is going fine thank you.”